Wish People Knew!!

Depression is eating at me every minute and second of the day, how do I cope with the horrible effects and make it go away?

I feel so tired and run down and I don't sleep, I lie in bed at night and wonder why it runs so deep.

Everyone asks why do you look so sad, do I tell them that my depression is eating me up and that I feel really bad?

Does everyone notice how I walk around in a sad, and that I have deep black bags under my eyes nowadays.

I wake up every morning feeling so hopeless, like nothing ever goes right and wondering why my life has to be such a mess.

Falling from darkness to a place I don't know, everything's moving with no place to go I feel so alone and scared
As I fall, I wonder, "Is anyone there?"

As the days and nights pass right by I count the nights I just lay and cry falling from faith, falling from love
please, is there anyone?

No one knows how I really feel
I just want him to hold me and help me heal
As I fall, I feel the rain
I begin to think that may be he isn't the key to ease my pain.

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Depression makes me forget the world. Depression makes me sick, what does depression give me? 
I'm so far gone you wouldn't even know so far gone I won't even show. I'm too far gone you can't help me. So far gone, I wish you could understand how much pain one could withstand. I'm in so deep to deep for you to notice, to deep for you to care I'm gone now nothings left.
The Pain is bigger then me, It seems that the struggle is always here with me. 

Outside lives a girl with a smile that will brighten up the room, yet inside hides a girl shedding tears of sadness. Outside lives a girl full of life, yet inside hides a girl full of pain, wanting to die. Outside lives a girl with goals and aspirations, yet inside lives a girl lost in confusion. What you see on the outside is my personal disguise, what hides underneath you can't even begin to imagine. 

If you hold me close you can hear my heart it cries more than most from being torn apart. I ask "why must I awake?" Can you ever truly forgive without forgetting? Even though these tears are streaming. Each day I live, little sanity I have bloomed like walking in a cloud of fog. Interest lost in everything I do but what a life, who really knew? I try and try to ease the pain a fallen effort with no gain, thoughts begin to eat away. Uncomfortable around others for the way I feel I pray and wish this all wasn't real. write this all as I fall from grace
Down to this place, some barren waste I know not how much longer I will last but all I can do, is pray that this will just pass.

I look in the mirror and it's like I don't even recognize myself. I look so down and try not to cry. I see that girl when I look in the mirror, but she's too far gone.
I can't bring her back to life she's feeling to much strife. I feel her inside me, but my depression won't let her come out. I think the old me is gone without doubt.

Cancer

We all know we have to let things go in life, but how can you let go of someone you love with all your heart. How can you just sit there and see that person everyday knowing one day you're not gonna see them again because cancer took over there body, you just sit there and you're seeing them and there dying and you can't so anything about it but just try and help. You try and make them as comfortable as possible. Cancers is taking away my best friend my uncle, he treats me like a great person and I don't want to see him go but I am. I feel bad because I cant do anything. I keep my head up for him and I always will. Staying strong forever! 

Be Strong Because You Can Make It

You can make it don't tell yourself you can't. I want to give up so badly but I didn't because of two people in my life. You just need that little hope to not give up. You need to find that and think about it everyday. Like if its someone talk to them everyday or if its something that makes you happy go see it or go do it. Hope is always there for you. Its the only thing that wouldn't leave you. I have hope that my life will get better and I have hope that everyone can stay strong if they try really hard. I can be your hope I was love to help someone that needed it. I would never leave someone the needed me even if that person hated me I would never leave someone that needed someone there for them. Be someones hope and saver. You may help someone a lot for being there. Hope its there for you and is never going to leave your side.

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